May 7th 2010

This is going be my first ever blog entrance. I am not really creative and English is my third language, so I am not perfect candidate for blogging. However, I have a desire to try.

Most of my life I was told that being overweight is not good. People wouldn't like me and I will never achieve all this good things that I could achieve if I would be slim. Easy to say then do. Some people will probably tell me that being overweight is not that bad and I just have to accept my weight and be happy. Also I often find people who overweight calmer and easy to communicate with. I am not a calm person, given that may be this blog will change me.

However, all this weight loss was engraved in my mind since I was little. I have never been skinny. I have wide bones and like to eat, the outcome is simple - I am overweight. But unlike other people I am not really happy, especially when I know that I loose these stubborn pounds.

So I decided to create this blog to make my food cravings a public record and I hope to get feedback from the readers. And may be writing this blog I will be able to create the great balance in my life I so need.

So a little bit about my appearance. I am 5'5" and weight 158 pounds. About a month ago I got married and my weight was 150lb (we lived together before the wedding for several years, so nothing changes much food and cooking wise). Took me almost a year before the wedding to drop 17lb and now I am watching them piling back on me.

I know how it is sound - here is another one who wants to track her diet. Well, not exactly. When I dropped 17lb before the wedding (during 8 month period) I didn't follow any specific diet and I was not tracking calories. I just was able to eat less since there was a target. Now - there is no target and I don't like diets, so I was thinking that by sharing my life and my meal choices during the day I will be able subconsciously and with your feedback to go right direction.

I've never felt that I will be sharing my life with complete strangers, however I feel very exciting about it. May be there will be no supporters and my blog will be online journal. I just want to try. I am not sure how often I will be entering information - target is once a day.

So, today me and my best friend spent several hours at Rummage Sale and purchase some cheap things for the house. I love that sale and trying to get there early enough in the morning (I even too the day off) to be the first in line. Before I left the house I had my cereal (whole grains 110ccal) with 1% milk. When I arrived to the sale place I had to wait for my BF (she stuck in traffic). When she came she brought me bagel with cream cheese and the Starbucks cappuchino. I love this coffee, but usually don't drink it much. So I had this big cup of coffee and half a bagel before 3pm. After we finish shopping we drove to my BF place and went for a lunch. I had large piece of salmon staffed with cheese and asparagus with spinach and rice. I ate almost all of it. It was soooooooo good. After we say good bye to each other I went home and together with my husband walk to eat ice cream. I've got medium size twist (soft ice cream) in regular cone with chocolate dip. I think I have 2-3 glasses of water/coke during the day and I am really hungry now.

Since it is late I promise that I will drink one more glass of water and go to sleep.

Good night